I’m just sitting in Mila’s chair holding her precious little self in my arms and I couldn’t be any happier.

She’s such a peaceful sleeper after a nursing, I want to live in this moment forever.

This is what life is all about. I was seriously put on this planet to be a mother to this little girl and I’ve never thanked God so much in my whole life since she’s been born.

Enjoying these cuddles before work. She fell asleep eating :’) #dearmila

I live for the mornings with her. She’s rolling around the bed and talking to me! #dearmila

My sweet baby girl is 2 weeks shy of 6 months.

SIX MONTHS GUYS!

She can sit unassisted for long periods of time and she’s good at it too!

She still hates tummy time no matter how fun I try to make it haha. She has only rolled over twice so far. I’ve been doing these exercise’s that her doctor showed me and they seem to be helping. My big baby is just having a harder time haha

She loves to stand and she can stand for a few seconds while holding on to something on hrr own. She takes steps too! Maybe I’ll have a daughter that skips crawling?

She’s very vocal! She has been saying “mom-mom-mom” or “bob-bob!” Me and Willy were laughing so hard last night because she would look at us so seriously and put her hands up and say bob over and over. I don’t know where she got that from haha put she says it so perfectly. When Mila is hungry or tired and Willy is holding her she actually lunges towards me saying “mom-mom” or “ma” I don’t think she realizes what she’s saying but she notices that it works. She is incredible!

She is currently 17.4 lbs and I believe she’s 26 in long! She was in the 90th% at her 4 month visit for both height and weight. She’s a big girl! In fact we’ve made the decision to make the switch to the convertible carseat. The carseat is just too heavy to haul her around in.

She is still breastfed and we have started some solids but only here and there. We are really considering BLW but I need to do more research than internet reads. Haha

She can crack up laughing at the silliest of things. Most of them involving that cat. She is a happy and healthy baby and I couldn’t be any happier!

Oh that face. #dearmila

Front facing camera makes her extremely happy #dearmila

The birth story of Mila On Friday, November 2nd (39 weeks 6 days pregnant) me and Willy were hardcore nesting. We cleaned until I had to get ready for my 12 pm doctors appt. So we went and I was checked and dilated at 5 cm! My doc couldn’t believe that I was still holding her in, she swept my membranes for the third time. Then we left. As I was walking to the car I felt a light contraction that put the biggest smile on my face. That’s when I knew she would be coming this weekend. We decided to go home and eat then go to the gym. I was on the ball and walking the tredmil for a good hour. I felt a few contractions at that time but nothing painful at all. Then we went home and relaxed for a bit. I slept and didn’t feel anymore contractions. We decided to go walking and shopping to see if that would move thing along. That did, I felt a few more. We went home and spent some “quality time” together and I’m sure that’s what did it. Contractions were more frequent. I decided to get in the bath tub. It felt great. That is when I decided to start timing my contractions. I started timing them and they were 5 min apart! I thought this couldn’t be possible. We decided to go to the hospital because of how dilated I was, I just didn’t know how fast id progress and my hospital is a 35 min drive. We get to the hospital and they monitor me in the triage room. My contactions weren’t so frequent but they were there. They wanted to check if id dilate more. They monitored me for and hour, then told me to walk for another hour and then wait for a hour. My birth plan stated to send me home if not in active labor and I wanted a complete unmedicated labor and delivery. Finally after 3 and 1/2 hours they admitted me. I was feeling great still. I was laughing and giggling between contractions. The nurses were very supportive of me wanting to go unmedicated, they even dimmed the lights and spoke very soft. They did offer to give me pitocin to speed contractions and I said no. I didn’t want to distress her and end up getting an epi. We mutually decided for them to break my water. That’s when my MIL and SIL came. They broke my water and my first contraction after was intense! I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I was shaking and rocking my hips in bed. I couldn’t talk. I almost felt like crying but I kept telling myself that I can do this. Willy would kiss me and tell me that I’m doing so well and tell me how wonderful of a mother I will be. That kept me strong. I felt like I was having an excorcism! (I cannot tell you how long this lasted, it felt like a lifetime) I asked to labor on an excercise ball. My sweet SIL was brushing and tickling my hair, keeping it off of my neck and trying to distract me wth random stories. I felt so rude because I wouldn’t reply id just make noises. And try to smile. I moaned a lot during contractions. I got sick and threw up twice so I decided to lay back down. The room was spinning at this point. I thought of an epi but swayed away thanks to my supporters. Contractions were so close together and so painful! All I remember really is me telling the nurse that I’m going to poop lmao. That’s when they called the doctor, whom was still at home (and not even my doctor) I didn’t want to wait for him, with every contraction I felt the need to bear down and push. I was so in and out of it I thought I was going to poop and not deliver Mila yet. The nurse kept telling me to hold off a little bit longer but I didn’t listen. The doc came in shortly and everything was ready and preped he sits down and checks me (I’m in some weird state where I felt like none of this was real) I remember hearing him say something about my baby flying out lol. it was about 15 mintues of me pushing until I felt her head push out, I was pushing on my own and doing what my body wanted to do, I didn’t care at this point I wanted her out. They put an oxygen mask on me. I pushed so hard and felt this gush come out of me and that’s when I knew it was her. Mila was born at 4:07 am, 7 pounds 11 ounces and 21 inches long on November 3rd (her due date) They put her on my chest and I lost it. I was whining and saying omg hello, I love you, hi princess. I was crying so hard but no tears were coming out. I was too exhausted to cry. I didn’t even realize the doctor stitching up my 2nd degree tear which I didn’t even feel! I just remember thinking how much I loved her and damn girl its about time lol Unfortunately Mila was a little more on the colder side and skin to skin wasn’t working. They took her to the nusery and I told willy to go. It was so surreal. They started the stomach compressions to get the blood out. I was gushing out so they gave my cycto something rectally (joy) and was put on pitocin. I was able to get up and pee about an hour after I deliverd her. I felt so good! I was shaking a lot and my temp was elevated but I was great, it was just my butt that was uncomfortable lmao. That’s when they put me in my room to stay in and my beautiful little family were waiting for me. They offered to give me drugs from left to rght and I said tried saying now to everything put they needed to give my pitocin for whatever reason. I decided to take motrin. Then a nurse came in and showed me how to breastfeed which became the easiest task ever for Mila, her fist time latching she was on for 30 min! Everything was fine with her. She was wonderful. I ended up getting a cold but I was in such a good mood it didn’t matter. The next 24 hours my daughter pooped 6 times and fed a time. I had a hard time getting and keeping her latch on a few times but I didn’t give up. She was only givin my breast milk. They told me as long as everything looks good I could go home the next day. Everything was wonderful by next day we were discharged at 1 pm the next day after she was born. I was so excited to bring her home. Now: she has been eating, pooping and sleeping so well now. She gets a bit fussy but she is super chill for the most part. She’s very alert and will look around at everyone and she smiles! She’s very vocal too. I am just so blessed to have her! I love her to death. I’m going to finish off here because I am holding her and I want to kiss her lol. I am so happy with my life guys :) I just feel so happy that I did it, unmedicated, its amazing what your body can take, I feel so badass lol

I now have 11 days until your due date. Its so very exciting to know that you could come anyday now. You have been making progress and going lower and lower. Its quite difficult to walk with a little pumpkin between your legs. This morning you were very quiet and it worried your dad and I.
I drank a cup of orange juice and normallly you would start thrashing around inside me. It took me a couple minutes of jabbing at you, singing you are my sunshine and shining a flashlight on your temporary home for you to make a move. My little lazy girl. I know there’s not a lot of room in there but pretty soon you will be out and I will be holding you in my arms. I can’t wait to sing your favorite song while looking at you.

I love you more than anything in this world little bird. I’m anxious to see you. Soon you will be here, I just wish I knew when soon is.

Love,
Mommy

Last night I felt Mila’s cute little foot move by my bellybutton. It was so cute, I started tickling her feet and then lightly pinching it and she wouldn’t move away from it. She would sway her foot a bit but no obvious swim away and hide in my back haha.

I think she loves me!

I cannot do a single thing in my whole day without thinking about her. I am so ready for my life to change. I know ill have rough sleepless nights but I couldn’t be more excited about it! I just love her so much.

I had the longest doctors appt ever! My doctor had to go deliver a baby so the head nurse checked me and swabbed me for the strep b test. Can I just say this nurse was amazing I wish she was my doctor! She was very patient and social with willy!

Well she checked me and she said omg I feel head! Hahha I’m 1 1/2 centimeters dilated and 80% effaced. I couldn’t believe it. But that explains all the cramping. I know this doesn’t mean I could have Mila early nor does it mean ill have her 2 weeks after my due date. Its just nice to hear that she is coming soon and by next month ill be a mother :)

I go in Mila’s room daily and I just picture her being here already sleeping in her crib, me feeding her in her rocker or me dressing her up in all her cute clothes. Please come soon little bird, idk how much longer I can take! #dearmila (Taken with Instagram)

Today marks 5 weeks and 4 days on the countdown of the big day. It is just amazing to think that I will be holding and kissing you in 6 weeks. Your movements have started to slow down which indicates that I’m nearing the end and you’ll be here soon.

Your father and I have almost finished the room. All we need is a hamper to put your cute little outfits that will soon be covered in spit up and poop & a trash can so we can throw away the said spit up and poop. As of now I am in high gear in getting our home prepared for your arrival (I have been since I found out I was carrying you months ago) the house is getting organized and deep cleaned from the main floor to the basement.Your bath robe is hanging with mine and your daddys, your bottle rack dryer is placed next to the sink as well as your bottle brush cleaner. Your shampoos, body wash and lotions are next to the bath tub and waiting to get used. I have also been cooking larger amounts of food so that I can freeze half of it so that way me and your daddy have ready to eat dinners on the first couple of weeks you are here. We are so excited my love.

Its funny how much stuff has accumulated withen these past 9 months. Before we had empty rooms and spaces in our home and now we are trying to get creative to make everything fit for you. There is something for you in every room of our house. I used to care about things having to match and flow together and now I have a bright pink bumbo and a purple and black stroller in the living room. I think that it all completes the room nicely though, like if it were missing all this time. I am proud to show off our baby friendly home :)

All in all we are 70% prepared for you, the extra 30% comes when you are here and we spend that first day/night home from the hospital and reality sets in. Even though we planned to have you and in fact it took several months of us trying until we finally were successful, it doesn’t necessarily mean that we aren’t a little scared. All we want in life is to give you the best one we can give. We want to show you kindness and love and we hope to raise you well enough to appreciate everything. I just want you to be happy. I hope that one day when you are reading these letters (I’m thinking as a wedding gift or if you don’t want to get married when you’re on your own), you look back on your life and realize how much you were loved even before you were born my Mila. I love that you have made me a better person already. I promise to help you do the same.

Love you forever and always,
Your Mommy

Getting things ready for the baby shower ;)
#dearmila (Taken with Instagram)

Top: sleepers and socks/mittens newborn to 3-6 months
Middle: onesies newborn to 3-6 months
Bottom: bottoms newborn to 3-6 months

Not pictured: the closet had the cute outfits and outerwear from newborn to 3-6 months. As soon as she passes up a size I’m taking that out and adding up a size.

Also not pictured: extra large bin with clothes ranging from 6 months to 2T

My unborn daughter has more clothes than I have had my whole lifetime.

Everything is washed, now time to organize by size and style and put them away. Oh these are just from newborn to 3-6 months(not including what in her closet and dresser already), the rest are in a large bin.
I haven’t even had the baby shower yet, I hope I don’t get pure clothes!